When The Day Meet The NIght

I wanna break this spell

2010-07-25T01:05:00.000+08:00

Somebody to Love

2010-07-24T20:17:00.000+08:00

I NEED HIM.
MY DRUG.

In my mind

2010-07-24T19:58:00.003+08:00

Its a lonely Saturday. So I'm bored no laughing, partying or hanging out with my friends today. Just me and my laptop for the pass few hours.But even though I am all alone I keep thinking about HIM. I want spent more time with him and when I'm with me I feel like there is no one around me.

This is bad cause I know I am playing with fire. Somebody is going to get hurt and my guess the person is me. But knowing the fact I going to get hurt, I just can't make myself stop. Its like I'm addicted to HIM. He just like a bloody drug if I don't get him I will just feel incomplete.

He makes me laugh all the time. Just thinking about HIM and his lame jokes it make me smile. He make all the good girl go bad and I am one of the girl. I'm not sure what exactly I am feeling. Coz I know this is not love and I liked him very much. So much that I want spent my time with him. Reply his every message.

DO HE THINK ABOUT ME LIKE THE WAY I THINK ABOUT HIM?
IS THIS JUST ANOTHER GAME FOR HIM?
IS IT POSSIBLE FOR US?

HE IS MY NEW ADDICTION soon YOU WILL FIND OUT WHO.

addicted,
Panic89

Still a Kid

2010-06-21T21:43:00.001+08:00

21st June 2010 is the day that I turned 21 years old. A year older but not wiser :P
I don’t know why but I just love the number 21, maybe because it is the number of my birth date or maybe because 21 years old is the day that I get my key to freedom. I like to say big thank you to all my friends for the wishes and I love all of you very much. So cheesy :P

But somehow I rather to stay young and play all the time. I know we all have to grow up one day. Why can’t we just stay the way we are with the friend we grow up with? Playing is fun studying is so stressing. Working is boring.

Everyone is busy growing up no one cares about being young anymore. As for me I never want to be those adults who forget to laugh and have fun. I will keep laughing and playing even as my age grows older every year.

FUN IS WHAT WE ALL NEED TO HAVE!!!!!!!!

a year older,
panic89

Sociological Theories (RJ)

2010-05-26T23:02:00.001+08:00

From my knowledge I had learnt there are three mains sociological theories. They are functionalist, conflict and interactionist. I can also use this sociological theories as my own experiences they help us make choices and anticipate consequences.

When we are considering a career in sports friends or teachers will be there to help us. In functionalists the government will have every students to play at least one sports during our secondary lives. So our school will organize different sports group for students to participate. From here we can actually start falling in love with a sport. This is when sports are being introduced to the young generation.

We will have our own rights to chose on which sport we want to play. Interactionist allows a person to choose their own path. From here could actually be where they will be making a decision if they would like to have a career in sports. They have the right to write their own social script based on their experiences they had toward a particular sports. They will search for their comfort.

Looking from a conflict theory not everyone will be given an opportunity to have a career in sports. Certain sports are played by certain people due to their class. Lower class usually plays the mass sport while upper class will be playing sports that are much higher class for example golf. Even if a person from a lower class turn to a professional athlete they would end up being a professional in the mass sports due to opportunity that are given to them when they were young.

When someone is considering a career in sports they also consider if they are willing to spend all their time for sports. Through socialization, people develop ideas about themselves and about those with whom they interact.

stressing off,
panic89

Chuck is GOD!!!????

2010-05-14T22:01:00.003+08:00

Chuck turn out to be god? How could this be possible, ermm....I know it's possible but nnnnnnnnnnoooooooooooooooooooo............... I love him too much for him to be god (ok, maybe not as much as I love Castiel). Chuck cheated my feeling, now I'm not sure to love or hate him.

Okokok..... before everyone get confuse I'm talking about Supernatural Season 5 finale. The fight is over and the world is saved but the truth is still remain untold. What's going on? Chuck is god? Castiel now an archangel? Sam out from the hell cage? SURE OR NOT!!!????

ggrrrrr...... the more I think about it the more I want to know. Can't wait for Supernatural season 6 to come back!!!!! Eric Kripe is the best writer :D

Chuck begins his final book, titled "Swan Song", with an explanation of the Impala's history and significance. He is later called by Dean for the location of Lucifer and Michael's final battle, which he readily gives. He finally appears dressed in white, musing on the difficulty of getting endings right. He then disappears - Chuck, it seems, is God.

Dirty Picture

2010-05-01T12:48:00.001+08:00

I think I like most of Ke$ha songs :/
even though most of her song doesn't make sense.
hehehehe...........

wondering off,
panic89

Improvement

2010-05-01T12:42:00.003+08:00

I think I doing better in Year 2 then I was in Year 1. LOOK ONLY 2 PROBLEM AND I GETTING Bs AND A!!!! to some this might be nothing but to me this is incredible.
I making a promise here and to everyone who reading this, for this semester I should get only 10 C's or less!!!!!!

I'm happy with my grades right now, and should not be over confident... Have to keep working hard especially for my Test :)
I glad I didn't give up........

Smiling off,
panic89

Stong trip

2010-04-11T12:05:00.002+08:00

Just got back home from Dabong yesterday morning. It was a great experience that I would never forget. No words can describe the fun that I had there. The team that I went with was great. We were working together and supporting one another, pushing and motivating one another. (Even though there was a few or maybe alot of miss communication :P)

1st day early in the morning we reached at Dabong 7am. Less than 5 mins walk to uncle(the guide who brought us) house. We were invited in by his daughter and wife, they were really friendly. Had noodle cooked by his wife.

After filling our empty stomach it was time for our first adventure to begin. We went caving for about 4 hours(i think) and Uncle told us everything he knew about the cave and all the different things you can find in there. There were also bats :)

We visited 3 different cave and then head back to town to have lunch and got ready to visit Baha campsite(our first night). It took us about 2 and a half hours to reach the Baha campsite and I had to admit that I was getting really tired and the motivation from my team I refused to gave up and kept on going :) Finally we reach the campsite and the view was lovely. It is not easy to describe it in words, you have to go there to see it yourself.

The next day hike for 9 hours and we conquered Mount Baha and Mout Ayam :) We spent the night at Mout Ayam. As the sun set down the temperature gets colder and the next morning it was so cold that even a jacket could not keep me warm. Had breakfast and continue our trek to Gunung Stong (our main aim!!!!)

Reach the summit of Stong almost 1pm. Had our lunch there with the company of squirrels. Uncle was able to communicate with the squirrels and somehow it understand what uncle was saying (cute rite?) From the summit of Stong you could see the mountains around it, the view was beautiful :D

At 2pm we had to trek down as we will be spending our night at Baha campsite. We reached Baha campsite just in time before there was no more light. We were went down really2 fast almost running to reach Baha campsite before darkness came. Uncle was laughing behind us as he could not believe how fast we could actually walk.

Next morning we woke up pretty late as all of us were really tired. But the last day was the best. We had our lunch on top of the waterfall before going in the water for a swim. The water was cold but nice :)
And we get to slide down from a waterfall!!!!! My first attempt I was scared like mad, my legs and hands was shivering. My voice was shivering and Uncle was laughing at me as he could not belive that I would be that scared :/ When he finally pushed me I slide down and the feeling was like WOO HOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha... i even when for the second time :D I CAN NEVER FORGET THAT FEELING....

After all the fun we had, sadly it was time to say Goodbye to Baha campsite :( We trek down for an hour down and went back to uncle house to have dinner. We had so much food for dinner :D

I had to admit that the last day was the saddest moment as it is time to say Goodbye :'( Uncle family was really2 nice and friendly so it is not easy to say goodbye to them. When I bored the train to head back to Singapore I felt that I had left something behind and that is LOVE.

I felt in love with Uncle family and the Mountains that I conquered for 4days :'(
One day I shall come back and re-visit my memories and the good times.

Missing off,
Panic89

Family Day

2010-03-20T22:50:00.005+08:00

Had a family gathering today @ my auntie house. Everyone was there (uncles,aunties, children's) it was really crowded with people. The house was full of laughter's and fun. I had lots of fun today & I even won a prize during their "Lucky Draw".

There was games & lots of food.I have no idea how many times I got up to eat.
I had fun today & I won't mind doing these again :D

I was thinking if I should make my 21st birthday like these?
games?foods?funs?
hhmmmm................................

funning off,
panic89

They ask & I answer

2010-03-17T15:25:00.002+08:00

Which Supernatural Angel Are You?

More on Supernatural. Created by BuddyTV

Panic89 was bored and did this :)

bored off,
panic89

Girls just wanna have fun

2010-03-08T21:45:00.002+08:00

Currently addicted to this really old song.
The song is like damn old. Seriously, but I really like the lyrics......
Coz, it true girls just wanna have fun (at least that what I want)

I want to go out and have fun. Do what make me happy :D
I want to be the one who walk in the sun......

*I having problem loadin the video, so I just put the link :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J0DfOCmshRE&feature=related

fun off,
panic89

Blame it on the Goose

2010-02-23T22:25:00.003+08:00

My topic for today is about people. Most of us would never put the blame on themselves coz that would be really stupid.So Blame it on the Goose (Jaime Fox, song).

If someone say it is my fault, of course I would not take the blame.Like WTH blame it on the Goose. It is not my fault if you Screwed right :/ catch the goose and blame him or something.

Anyway, I went to my uncle place last Sunday (not that FUN, I kidd') with my grandma and grandpa. My grandma can't really walk (her leg is not strong and so on) so she uses a wheelchair to go around. We were waiting for a cab and about 3-4 empty cabs pass us and did not STOP.& of course this pisses me off.
Bad enough it was a raining none of the cab driver wanted to stop. Seriously!!!??? Just because you saw a wheelchair you decided not to give a damn.

This message is not for all the cab driver if you are those cab driver who is friendly and nice and do the right things, you guys are fine :)
But to those driver who hate to pick up wheelchair bound passengers, get a life.
Don't drive a cab, drive a freaking train or lorry where you don't have to worry about wheelchair passenger. erm.... maybe not a lorry (going out of point).

Don't hate us if you hate your job. It is your profession so be professional. Do the right thing, if you suppose to make burgers make a damn burger NOT pizza. If you suppose to dance then shake your bum bum(bum bum??? is that even rite) not sleeping.
& if you suppose to pick up passenger, do it right. Come on ppl :)
Hate your job? Blame it on the Goose (not us) !!!! OR get another job, it is not that hard (Why would you want to work in a place you hate, for the rest of your lives?)

Goosing off,
panic89

My P.L.A.N.S

2010-02-19T01:54:00.002+08:00

Changes,

panic89

Evelyn Farewell

2010-02-17T19:42:00.003+08:00

Monday send Evelyn off to Melbourne. Have to admit it make me felt sad that she have to leave.

*sob sob.... Saying goodbye was the hardest, I couldn't even say bye but just wave to her.

Hope to see her online soon but currently she having some problem with the Internet over there.

Now all I can do is wait for her to get everything fixed so that we can chat online soon :)

Received a message from her this morning like damn early!!!!! But I was happy in a way that at least she message me.But I think she accidentally message me :/

hard to explain here..... LOL.

But I want to go Gold Coast. Hope I can save money for the trip :D

Take care Evelyn & see you soon.

Take care people,

panic89

Late Night Post

2010-02-15T02:47:00.006+08:00

Almost 3am and I'm still wide awake well most probably because I had like 2 hours of afternoon nap.Blog is getting really dusty coz I hardly update it. Here's a quick update what I been up to.

Firstly I glad to announce that the Holiday is here like finally. No more school and exam.I love school coz that is the only time I get to meet my friends and there is nothing much to do at home. If I don't stay at home I end up going out and spending lots2 of money.

Another thing is that about 17hours time Evelyn would be flying to Australia for about 1 year to continue her studies. Hope she would have fun there and even though I tell everyone (including Evelyn) that I won't miss her, of course I would miss her.
Stupidest question to ask me tomorrow would be. "Will you miss her?" seriously I would count the number of person who ask me the stupidest question of the day (& update about it tomorrow)

To Evelyn See,
Have fun in Australia and of course I will miss you but not that much :P
Study hard there and during your free time go and find a boyfriend (not for you but for me).
Video call me when you get bored and I try to be online as much as possible so that we can video call. Go ahead and name the cow after me (at least with the cow help you will remember me). LOL..... I'll save our 21st birthday celebration when you come back, maybe we can go for a buffet or something when you come back.

See you soon my pendek geeky friend :D
p.s: Trying my best not to make a sad farewell letter.I think it work, rite?

"So goodbye, my friend.
Until we meet again,Some other day.
I know so much will change.
But looking back I can say,I wouldn't change a day.
I hope you can say,The same"
Lyrics from Hoobastank.

missing ya,
panic89

LUCK

2010-02-04T21:54:00.003+08:00

If we were to receive something that we had dream for a long time is this because of Luck?
What happen if we study for our test but during the day itself everything you learn juz disappear, is this because you ran out of Luck?
Is life about Luck, sometimes even without trying you achieve something Good.
Luck.Luck.Luck

Luck is the key to your Destiny.

she can make you laugh
she can make you cry
she can take you down
she can take you high
don’t you ask how
don’t you ask why
the way you gotta do,
you can only try

ok,maybe tonight post make no sense or whatever.
but i was just wonderin..........

luck-ing off,
panic89

A note to a classmate

2010-01-28T23:42:00.003+08:00

If I were given an opportunity to write a note to a classmate I would write it to JY. She is the funniest girl you could meet in E36D and down to earth. I love spending my free times with her or share my thoughts and problems. She is understanding and a good friend.

An encouragement I would like to give to her is to stand tall and proud when she make a decision. She is flicker minded and most of the time keeps changing her thoughts or idea. For example she would want to do A but later she would be doing B instead.

She should stop worrying of what a person think about her. She should just do what she wants to do best and ignore all the negatives comments given by others. Always strive high. I feel that she is great in whatever she do.

*My RJ question.........

RJ-ing off,
panic89

Re-cap

2010-01-20T21:31:00.004+08:00

Last week went to Bugis with JY & Mushroom (Wei Sin) to Bugis.
It was really fun. We can't stop laughing and talk crap. We accidentally met Jun & MinEr. They also join us walk around Iluma (Ilulu- that is how they call it.)

Random photo me & JY too.
*Warning, photos might not be suitable for young children.
(Relax, i kidd'. NO, seriously don't see it if you have a weak heart)

"I kissed a girl and I liked it

The taste of her cherry chapstick

I kissed a girl just to try it

I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrong, it felt so right

Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl and I liked it liked it"

Anyway, training tomorrow :) We been doing a lot of running lately during training. The reason will be we going to Gunung Stong!!! OK, it is not 100% confirm but 89% confirm but I think everything should be ok.

Left 2 and a half more weeks before school close. Going to be fun. H.O.L.I.D.A.Y!!!!!

Planning to look for a job since the previous job love me so much that they decided not to take me back (unless I did whatever they wanted me to do ~OK, fine watever, old story [Dead & Gone] :D

(Don't get the wrong idea coz I still LOVE some (not all a few those who is nice to me) of you over there)

Sad news Evelyn (Pendek) is going overseas to study. Now who going to entertain me and who going to listen to all my complaints. She will be going off after Chines New year. She will be gone for 10mths which mean I need a new bestfren (I have a few names in my mind). So whoever out there is interested to be my new fren just e-mail me your Proposal (basically tell me more about yourself & why I should pick you)

*Terms & Condition apply

Enough of crapness. I'm off watching New Moon.See you all soon!!!!

Maybe......

Thank you for coming:) (Miss Mr Mountain Dew)

waving off,

panic89

NEW BABY

2010-01-17T11:39:00.001+08:00

GOT A NEW PHONE & I LOVE IT.

XOXO

handphone off,

panic89

Mountain Dew

2010-01-08T23:56:00.004+08:00

I'm getting really sleepy but I just have to update this blog of mine. What I typing would be kindda crappy coz I just typing whatever in my mind.Anyway had almost 5 and a half cups of mountain dew today!!! & my stomach feel so funny after that.This what happen .......

So my school had open house today, I was standing at my IG booth when there this guy who giving out free Mountain dew. & his body was FINE. *Melt.

Seriously, when the first one he come I took 2 mountain dews from him, juz to talk to him.

Then the second time I took again, just to ask what school he is from. OK, maybe he is not that good looking but his body is WOW.

I couldn't stop staring at him. Tomorrow might be going to school and look for him. Hahahaha... I know stupid right? But, ahhhh...... He is just so FINE.

OK, typing shit now,Time to shut down.

BTW, i'm addicted with 3OH!3 :D

Mountain Dews all the way.

Energy off,

panic89

Adam Lambert

2010-01-05T23:25:00.003+08:00

No escaping when he start. Once his in he own your heart :)

Can you handle what he's ’bout to do. ‘Cause it’s about to get rough for you :0

Take the pain . Take the pleasure. He is the master of both.

Close your eyes, not your mind. Let him into your soul :D

Do you like what you see? Oh...... Let him entertain ya ’til you scream.

"I bet you thought that I was soft and sweet

You thought an angel swept you off your feet

But I’m about to turn up the heat

I’m here For Your Entertainment"

Adam Lambert

Lambert off???,

Panic89

Fucked Up

2010-01-05T18:36:00.002+08:00

I’m drowning in my own shit. I’m so fucked up right now. Lately friend isn’t really a problem for me. I have lots of nice and great friends who I treasure a lot. Family have been nice too (even though there is up & down).They had been there for me & support me whenever I faced problems or just there to talk crap with me.

What pissing me off right now is school. School is not going as I plan!!! Everything feels like shit to me. My studies are going down the fucking drain. This is really bad. 1st semester I got only 2.0gpa (which is not good), so this semester I have to do really well but obviously I’m doing like shit.

I got 3 bloody E’s for my first test and not a single fucking B!!!! I’m so stress right now & this is only year 1. How would I survive when I go to year 2!!!!??? I’m trying not that I’m not, but I have to admit studies is never my thing (never like studying since forever). UT2 is almost over and I think I did really badly. Fuck man, if I fail UT2 than I’m dead!!!!

Now I just don’t know what I really want to do? I don’t even know why I went back to school after 2 years break from school. Maybe I want the diploma or I just don’t want to be that girl who only have o-level certificate. I don’t know.

I really want to do well but me just screwing things up. FUCKED UP!!!!

gone,
panic89

First Day Never Fun

2010-01-04T23:28:00.002+08:00

Today was the first day of school.Woke up super late and rush to school taking a cab.
First day is never fun. Hate it. Boring and I never like Leslie - he always talking to me and asking if I'm ok, need help, have I study. Arrgghhhh... like go away already I dun wan to talk to you.
His smile is never nice too. GROSS. *puke
Thanks for the C's you gave just because I didn't evaluate my friends.

School tomorrow and I don't want to go :(
Sleep.Sleep.Sleep.

(Meanest post evar xoxo)

Moody off,
Panic89

2010

2010-01-01T20:24:00.002+08:00

A new year :D Wishes to all my crazy lovely frenz, hope you all would have a great year.
Happy New Year to all people I love & hate (hehehehe)........

THANK YOU.....
Love you all, the good and the bad:)
thats life.

Wishing off,
panic89

Home Sweet Home

2009-12-27T23:24:00.002+08:00

Finally back at home. Not that I didn't had fun in KL, of course I had fun. The hotel (apartment) was beautiful and big. You can play catching in the room (seriously, that is how big the room was).

Sunway Lagoon was nice too. But too bad the roller coaster was not working when we went there. Maybe I would visit Sunway Lagoon again. The weather was just nice and the water was cold :) We reached Sunway about 11am and played till 5:30pm.

Had Subway for all the three days. & my fav is Subway melts. *Yummy:D
Didn't get a lot of things for myself. Three reasons .........

Didn't really need anything.
The shirts are all too small for me :(
NO MONEY

*Might be watching movie tomorrow. Still deciding. Anyone want to come :)

FunFunFun

2009-12-23T15:16:00.004+08:00

It is going to be a busy week for me. I am going for a long holiday. I can’t wait (Its’ going to be fun, we going to Sunway Lagoon). Don’t miss me people, coz I will be too busy having fun to remember any of you. (Relax, Kidding... (Maybe: P))

It’s going to be the end of year. Time moved so fast when we are having so much. They say as the time goes by we need to grow up and be an adult think and behave like them (something that I have no intention in doing). I prefer the way I am right nowJ my friends’ say I should act my age? What’s my age again?

So friends if you see me outside in 10years time don’t be shock. You all had been warn. I would still be who I am. I tried to be someone else but nothing seemed to change. I know now, this is who I really am. Don’t try to change me coz I loved who I am.

It’s OK to have fun & stay young. GET UP & DANCE!!!!!

SO TELL ME, What is my age again? :P

guessing off,

panic89

Lalala

2009-12-22T23:02:00.003+08:00

Got a job, Some guy just called me and offered me a job (something got to do with marketing). Need to meet him next week for an orientation. Should I go? It so random, he suddenly called and said I got a job. The pay is great, 1 assigment and the pay is $500-$600!!!
I didn't even went for any interview, can't remember if I wrote any application.
Should I go? JY said it might be a scam.....
HOW!!!????

Going to KL again.LOL....
Going for 4days3night with my auntie and uncle.
*Yipee!!!!!!

Got my hair cut.
Short.Short.Short.

jumping off,
panic89

Busy Week

2009-12-15T22:00:00.003+08:00

My whole week is so pack.

Monday- Test
Tuesday- Shopping with sister
Wednesday- Picnic with TrekEarth
Thursday- Do passport/ Laptop (Stupid screen keep blinking)
Friday, Saturday & Sunday - Some family thingy

As for next week,
Monday- Rest
Tuesday- City Hall (Get laptop fixed)/ movie
Wednesday- Sleepover at auntie house (Not confirm)
Thursday- Off to KL
Friday- KL
Saturday- KL
Sunday- Leave KL
Yawning off,
panic89

Random Bored-ness

2009-12-11T20:08:00.001+08:00

Just feel like updating my blog. But I don’t really have anything to write about. School is fine but could be better. Life is OK, nothing special. Yet again another boring day for me. BTW, I just got Life4Dead II (randomness bored-nes).

I planning to get my hair cut (Do you think short hair will look nice on me?) Might be watching New Moon this coming Monday (FYI, Monday is last day of school). No more training due to school holidays (BTW, I think my butt is getting bigger).

What else? Let me think..... erm... still thinking..... hiaz......
I guess that is all. I’m off to play L4D II: D .Oh and Marz went to KL 3 days 2 night without me. Sad much.

Random-ing off,

Panic89

All the right moves

2009-12-07T21:25:00.002+08:00

Do you think I'm special?Do you think I'm nice?Am I bright enough to shine in your spaces?Between the noise you hear.And the sound you like.Are we just sinking in an ocean of faces?

It doesn't matter what you see.I know i could never be someone that looks like you.It doesn't matter what you say.I know i could never face someone that could sound like you.

Moving on,

panic89

My Dream Pledge

2009-11-19T21:22:00.003+08:00

Have fun non-stop.
Fool around (Enjoy every little thing)
Dance till the night is gone
No Test/studies/presentation (Anything that have to do with school)
Sleep till I can't sleep no more
No 'Kiasu'
Freedom
Peace, Joy & Laughter

Back Home

2009-11-08T21:42:00.002+08:00

After 2 days and 1 night at Kuala Lumpur I'm back at home.

How I wish we could had spent longer time there. Didn't have much time for shopping. But I still had fun.

Details would be updated tomorrow coz right now i want take a hot shower and then sleep. Have to be fresh tomorrow. Having Entrepunership test tomorrow.& I have not study!!!!

yawning off,

Panic89

100 Posts

2009-11-06T21:14:00.002+08:00

This is my 100th posts/chapter/episode... Where is the cake/champagne/party?

Everyday is a new episode for me and people who know me. Sometimes I feel that live is like a drama show/movie, YOU are the main actor/actress with supporting actor/actress (your frens/enemies/family/neighbour/ or whoever you might now). I learn new things and faces new challenges. Few things happening in my life. Some I enjoy and some I don't understand at all.

IG
I really falling in love with my IG. (Trekking all the way). I enjoying every single day with the people there. Training is getting fun everyday. Even though most of them says that I talk so much that I can't even keep quiet for 1min :( Hahahaha. Do I really talk that much?

Friends
Lately I spending more time with my new friends then my old friends. I know I'm so bad at juggling friends (OK, that doesn't sound right but erm.....). I know I not spending enough time with my old friends. It is only Year 1 and I make it like I am so busy. I hardly go lunch with my Faz anymore and I could still remember all the promises we made (Never to lose touch) getting really hard lately to stay in touch. My D.S friends I have not met for very long time. I hardly have time for my friends and I AM SORRY IF I DISAPPOINTED YOU ALL.
(Dear old friends,
Hope you all not angry with me. I appreciate all the time I spent with you all. Thank you so much to coz you are always there for me. & sorry coz I am hardly there for you all. Please don't let go of our friendship. We will hang out soon. Not today but soon.I promise :)
From ,
Hafizah Jumti)

Dream
Craziest thing happening in my life is my dream. Lately I am dreaming about Mr D______. This making no sense at all. I don't think about him at all. At first when this crazy dreams started i didn't really think much about it. But this week the dream making me insane. I dreamt he was riding a horse (Stupid I know) then I dreamt he messaged me. Last week I dreamt I went to visit him and we fool round like always. I also dreamt he came to my house coz I was angry with him and he wanted to apologise. This is only SOME of the things I dreamt about him. There is more!!!!!! I know crazy and I never meet him for a very long time (about 5mths) and I don't think or talk about him that much and never have a huge crush on him BUT why is this happening. Gosh, get out of my dreams already!!!!!

Holiday
Would be going to KL tomorrow. 2days1night. Need to pack my bags.
Anyways BYE2.....

waving off,
panic89

Enjoy The Silence

2009-11-01T21:53:00.003+08:00

Words like violent, they break the silence.
Painful to me and they pierce right through me.
Words are unnecessary.They can only do harm.
Words are meaningless and forgettable.

Not Monday Again

2009-10-25T21:01:00.002+08:00

Monday is coming and i hate it.
Monday blues is horrible.
Monday is never a good day for me.
Monday make me angry.
Monday is horrible coz it comes after weekend.
Monday would be here and we can't run.

Monday-ing off,
Pamic89

A week late

2009-10-24T13:25:00.003+08:00

So I been really lazy last week that I had no time or put effort in updating my blog. Anyways, it had been a great week for me. Had lots of fun and new experiences. On Saturday (17 Oct) and Sunday (18 Oct) went to Gunung Datuk with my fellow IG, TrekEarth.

It was a new experience for me. Climbing a mountain with my heavy bag pack. It was really tiring but once you reach the top it was all worth it. The view was great. Too bad we only spent a day there coz I won’t mind spending another day on the mountain.

Next day we hike down the mountain. We took such a short time going down (well that is what I felt). I like going down, less tiring :P When we reach the base of the mountain we went swimming. The water was very cold but nice.

Took a train home and reached Singapore almost 11pm. Next day went to school like a Zombie.
I was very THE tired on Monday. I was supposed to have dinner with IOS staff but my body was really tired and it was ache like mad. I hope they had fun and I’m sorry coz I couldn’t join you all. I hope to join you all next time.

signing off,

panic89

Gunung Datuk

2009-10-16T23:04:00.002+08:00

Off to Gunung Datuk tomorrow for 2days 1 night. Super excited and can't wait to start hiking. It is going to be fun. Would update more about the trip and my experience when I come back.

Had dinner at Soul Garden with Marz, Nor and my cousin, Hir. We ate so much and I had lots and lots of prawns. Thanks Marz for treating us dinner. Photos can't be uploaded, I don't know why.....

Need to sleep early so that I would be fresh tomorrow.

Gunung Datuk here we come.

Coming off,

panic89

Today, Tomorrow and the future

2009-10-15T21:33:00.002+08:00

Have to pack my bag for Gunung Datuk trip. Food also haven buy.Planning to pack my bag tonight coz I would be coming home late tomorrow. Marz want to treat go Makan.

Who do girls prefer. the good boys or the bad boys?

Anyway me and Evelyn having this stupid rule that we cannot meet each other and can only contact each other VIA msn or ooVoo. Can call but cannot talk so long. Evelyn think this is stupid but I know actually she cannot live without me : Rite, Evelyn?
hahahaha......

packing off,
panic89

Dancing

2009-10-14T20:46:00.003+08:00

Tried drinking Red Bull(the blue one) today.Not nice at all I took only one sip and couldn't drink anymore. Even my mother doesn't like it. Don't understand how anyone could drink this type of drinks. I would always love my Pepsi.

Had marketing today. I love my team, so fun to be with. Can't wait for next lesson(marketing).

Have nothing much to say tonight. Can't wait for Gunung Datuk trip, 3 more days. Training tomorrow and tomorrow training we going to play game. No more intensive training. My back ache due to Tuesday training. 15 seconds run and sets is a good combination.

Hey Mr DJ! You have to put the record on.Going to dance tonight.Dance all night.

dancing off,

panic89

Smile No Frown

2009-10-13T23:28:00.005+08:00

Many reasons WHY I should be smiling than frowning :X

I survived first week of school.Something that I never ever expect coz I did so much better than my First semester. I managed to get 4 B's for first week of school. Which I never achieved for my first semester till the 3rd months (Yea.. I sux during first semester). Now waiting for Mathematics module grade, if I were to get B than I will be getting all B's for the first week.

After training rushed off to meet Evelyn and ShiBei. We were supposed to watch movie but could not make for the movie. I know sad much much much. But we went to have dinner at Northpoint. And I saw this guy who I used to like a long time ago. Evelyn comment was so bad, the first thing she said was so MEAN :P hahahaha.....

Another reason why I'm smiling because this Saturday I would be going to Gunug Datuk. Finally after postpone the trip like forever :) I can't wait. New experience and fun. (Can go shit in the Bush :P)

I guess everything is fine. But I still miss a lot of people. Especially this person, no one would ever ever ever guess that I would miss him. I know stupid I feel that way too. hahaha...... :P

After dinner I bought Fazreena a small gift.It is nothing fancy or whatever but it is the thought that counts rite?

Dreaming off,

panic89

Gabe Saporta

2009-10-11T21:49:00.006+08:00

Today is not only my friends birthday but it is also GABRIEL SAPORTA birthday. He is from the band Cobra Starship in case some of you might not know him.Anyways,

Happy Birthday. Love his randomness.

Gorgeous

Adorable

Beautiful

Expert

Sexy

Attention Seeker

Popular

Over-the-top

Random

Tough

Attitude

That's all folks. Love Gabe.

He is a wild child been grounded his whole life. Now he is running wild.

He is a Hot Mess and I love it !!!!

p.s: If you all don't like or know him.Whatever. Sorry Bitches.

gaby off,

panic89

Happy Birthday

2009-10-11T21:32:00.003+08:00

I have two friends whose birthday falls on 11th October.

Fazsreena and Hams.Happy Birthday Girl....

To Fazsreena,

Happy Birthday and I wish you had fun on you birthday.

You're a good friend and I enjoy your company. Now you are 18th!!!!!! we can watch M18 movies together. Have fun when you are still young and don't be so scared when talking with "HIM". Hope we would not lose contact with each other :)

To Hams,

Hey babe, Happy Birthday my TrekEarth partner. I love to be in your team.

When you are around I never get bored during training.

I still remember when we did the high ropes and you were great.
Hope that you stay crazy and nag always. Enjoy your birthday and see you during training.

Can't wait to go Gunung Datuk with you. Crazy much much :P

wishing off,

panic89

Open-House

2009-10-11T00:21:00.002+08:00

I had open house today.Last guest was Farlyana,Izzat and Ida :)
Feel so tired now but had so much fun.

I would like to say Thank you to all my friends who came to my house. I hoped the food that my mother cook was delicious and hope you all enjoyed it. Especially to Farlyana Izzat and Ida, I really appreciate that you all came even though you all were tired :)

For those who could not come my house today, no worries. There is always next time. Like Saif, I know you wanted to come but did not want to come alone :) It's OK.

Thanks for coming,
Evelyn see
Li Xin (Michelle)
You Chin
Jasmin
Shi Bei
Yong Zheng
Shafiiq
Aishah
Diyanan
Farlyana
Izzat
Shahidah
Fizah
& to those whose name I didn't mention..... (Sorry)

Thank you,
panic89

Quick Update

2009-10-07T17:15:00.000+08:00

2nd Semester already started.New classmates, faci and class. Everything feel so weird.
I guess we should give it time and finally everything would be fine. They seem nice.

Anyway, had training yesterday after a long time. Fazsreena was great, she kept running and never gave up. Remember what I say, "You stopped but you never gave up"
You go girl :P Training again tomorrow, hope you can come Faz.I really had fun with your company.

TrekEarth members are great too.Miss jocking with them.

later,
panic89

We need only 3

2009-09-24T00:38:00.000+08:00

TOO TIRED TOO UPDATED ANYTHING.I'LL COME BACK TOMORROW AND UPDATE MY BLOG.MEANWHILE ENJOY THE PHOTOS!!!!!

Went to Orchard and watch the movie gamer.Then went shopping at Bugis Junction.

Good place for shopping :)

EVELYN SEE & TOH YOU CHIN ARE THE BEST......

LOVIN' IT :D

panic89

Tomorrow

2009-09-19T20:44:00.000+08:00

CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW!!!!!
HARI RAYE!!!!HAVE A LOT OF WORK TO DO....
BUT ALL THE HARD WORK IS WORTH IT!!!!!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN....

smiling off,
panic89

3 Weird people

2009-09-17T16:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night it started with a Twit war.We were chatting (more like shooting) with each other using twitter.

It is stupid but funny.But still stupid and you all have to try it too.But your frens must be as crazy like this two!!!

YouChin was having a Bitch attitude and Evelyn took 5min(or maybe even more) to reply us. But who can blame her, her bum got stuck in the toilet bowl. Kiddin :P

After getting bored with twitter we try ooVoo.

It was Evelyn idea to video cam and my idea to use ooVoo.As for YouChin a.k.a Kyle he didn't came out with any idea.He was busy calling me and evelyn a Bitch.Jerk!

He fall asleep while video cam with us.He was too tired partying in the "USA".

Giving up our best pose. *Smile & Cheers :D

We finnaly say, goodnight (erm, or goodmorning) at 2 in the morning.

shutting off,

panic89

Back but not better

2009-09-12T03:52:00.000+08:00

Finally I am blogging again. I changed my old useless, not working background (which used to work perfectly) I still have no idea what happen to it but I think it had to do with the person who uploaded it or something like that.

It had been a while since my last post. What is the reason for this? Answer. I don’t know. Maybe because there is nothing to talk about. Erm, maybe there is a lot of things to talk about but I think I prefer it to be kept confidential. A lot of thing had happen (Obviously, I can see. I’m not blind) and some people I know are slowly changing to another person (making me very uncomfortable and question their intention).

On the 4th September 2009, D.S-licious had a mini reunion. It was a dinner (braking fast) planned/organised by Farlyana & Izzat. It was great and I had a lot of fun and laughter. Too much laughter and causes me to have stomach cramps couple of times. I have not seen them for a long time and all I can say is that, True friendship never ends.

enjoying off,

panic89

NOT WORKING!

2009-08-31T01:49:00.001+08:00

THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH MY BLOG SKIN!!!!I THINK I WILL UPLOAD A NEW SKIN TOMORROW OR SOMETHING.....CRAZY BACKGROUND.. AND I RELLY LIKE THE BACKGROUND!!!GEEZ...........

pissing off,panic89

Not ready to say Goodnight

2009-08-27T01:59:00.000+08:00

Hiaz....

I'm bored.It's 3 in the morning.I'm not ready to say goodnight :/

I have a joke. Well it's not my joke, I saw it in the net. But I thought it was funny.

Theres a pirate ship and a sailor says to the captain,"Captain Captain we're being attacked by 3 ships."
The captain says "Go get me my red shirt!"
After they win the battle the sailor comes up to him and asks "Captain why did u make me get ur red shirt"
& the captain says "If i was shot i wanted you all to fight and not worry about me."
The next week the sailor comes upto the captain and says "Captain Captain we're being attacked by 15 ships"
& the captain says "GO GET ME MY BROWN PANTS!!!"

hahahaha......
get it? Not my fault if you don't get it. You're just slow :P

Having fun with ooVoo :D

ooVoo-ing off,
panic89

Legend Of The Seeker

2009-08-27T01:33:00.000+08:00

Almost 2 in the morning and I am still wide away. Nothing nice is on TV. Watch Legend of the seeker on youtube. The actor is really hot (Craig Horner).
The show is about this guy who is a chosen one and have to protect the world and his people. Bla bla bla... Your everyday drama programme and the only reason I am watching the show coz the guy is hot. muahahaha......

Just a view clips that I snipped from the show :D

What a cute smile :)

This scene is the sweetest scene in this episode. He was willing to help this old man but he doesn't even know who this stranger was. In the end when he was trying to help the old man escaped,he found out the old man was actually working with the bad guy.
So, whats the moral of the story? Don't help a stranger? Come on...

More photos of him :D

awwwww....... so comel :P

seeking off,
panic89

Final touch on the last chapter

2009-08-25T21:22:00.000+08:00

First semester is finally over. Time moved so fast when you are having so much fun. The laughter and frustration we all shared will never be easily forgotten. I could still remember when I first step into the class (W45P) like it was yesterday; we all were strangers in each other eyes. Time brought us closer to each other, strangers become friends and for some of us even close friends who we can rely on.

When I first entered Republic Polythenic I had no intention in finding close friends. All I wanted to do was study, graduate and get the hell out of there. All I wanted was the damn diploma but everything change when I met this two.

In W45P, my faith and confidence came from these two girls I met. Our first impression with each other was nothing good. However as time goes by, we realised that we might had judge each other wrongly. These two girls made my first semester worthwhile and they were the reasons that I go to school. I am grateful to meet them and friends with them. I would never change or trade anything for our friendship (That is how important they are to me).

I really enjoyed their presence and company. They lighten up the atmosphere even though they can be very loud at times. All the talks, laughter, singing and secrets we shared with each other would never be erased. I would always remember it and maybe even start giggling by myself when I recalled all the funny and weird conversation we had. I loved it how we can be open with each other and do crazy things knowing that we would never judge each other behaviour.

I’m so used with them around me that I feel incomplete when they not there. I’ll feel so dead when I all alone walking to school or in class. So Fazsreena and Farah if you are reading these, both of you made the greatest affect in my life. I treasure every moment that I spent with both of you. Hope we never lose contact because if we were to lose contact I would hunt both of you down.

Friendship had been made and some even broken. But what matters to me is that the two F’s would always treasure me like the way I treasure them.
This is the end of semester one. Take a bow.

“Where would this road take me now?”
-“New friends?” or “New enemies?”
-“Brighter future?” or “Darker path?”

Fizah-ing,
panic89

Mood not right

2009-08-20T19:20:00.000+08:00

Been really2 busy with school. Upcoming test and everything.
No time to blog, and the mood isn't right.....
Wrong day and Time!!!
:(((

sighning off,
panin89

Good nothing Negative yet :P

2009-08-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went to my secondary BBQ at East Coast Park. Me, Evelyn, Shi Bei, You chin and Yong Zhen reach ECP like around 5pm then we went cycling. I have not cycle for a long long time. It was good to see all the familiar faces again. Miss them a lot.

Reached home almost 1 in the morning. Took bus home and by the time I reach home I was super sleepy and tired. But overall I had fun. I really did. Good memories.

I was not able to wake up today morning. Took the bus to school and I was so sleepy and no mood for school. At the beginning of the class I had no mood to talk to anyone. But like always Farah and Fazsreena was there to entertain me. I will miss both of them when we change class.

The holidays are coming. Can’t wait. UT2 grades are out, I pass my mathematic. OMG I can’t believe it. It’s miracle, hahahaha.......

jumping off,
panic89

The City Is At War

2009-08-08T23:05:00.000+08:00

Too many shit is happening in the world.
No one doing anything coz we just don't give a shit.
We all gonna regret it sooner or later.

School holidays is coming. I am feeling scared, what happen if I fail and have to repeat modules?
Hiaz, Science & Mathematics is not my subject.
Need help, before i drown.

Not in a mood to blog.
Busy stressing...............

stressing off,
panic89

Sleepy & Tired

2009-08-06T22:35:00.000+08:00

Feeling so sleepy right now!!!! Reached home almost 10pm.
I want to sleep but I just ate noodles with chicken.I am damn full.

Had training today, so sad today will be the last training. Hiaz, the training did not even last a month. Coz next 2 week is already the beginning of UT3 (argghh... UT again!)
Anyways today training Fazsreena & Farah joined me. They join TrekEarth, yipee....
We had a short jog and then we played Captain ball :)

Farah : She did training wearing jeans. It was so funny when we were doing stretching. She can't bend her legs coz her jean was too tight. Hahahaha... When we were playing captain ball she was so good la. She can catch every single throw and not fair coz she an ex-net ball player. At the beginning of the game she only stand at one spot posing. hehehehe:P
But she was GOOD..........

Fazsreena:She was awesome (Hey, babe you did great running up the ramp.. remember don't stop!!!) When we were playing captain ball she was so cute. She look like a secondary school kid with her school t-shirt and shorts (Tuck-in). She catch the ball like she was playing rugby. And she keep shouting, "i cannot!!" then end up catching the ball.
She was very funny.

It was fun.but too bad your first training is our last training till school re-open.
Sad much :(

take care,
panic89

Long Day...............................

2009-08-04T23:18:00.000+08:00

Woke up it was 6.30am. Left house around 7plus then meet with Farah Ray.

Didn't went school with Fazsreena coz she went with Hakim:P

Anyways had communication today. Topic was about persuading another person.Interesting topic in a way.

Had training today but today we went to ALC Tower (High ropes obstacle). Fun much :P

It was great la and I had fun. My hands are all red coz I hold the rope so tight.

The first obstacle was to do the 5 different station. We had to walk on the planks, spider-web, log and others. I hated the walking on the rope the most.OMG la, I could not reach the other rope.hahaha.... but it was fun.

Then our second obstacle was to pair up and do a different station. Our challenge was 1 of us blind folded while the other one would lead us. I partner with Hams and I was the one who was blindfolded. I screamed alot. Pai seh much.She was a great partner la, very motivating and give me confident to jump. She was so sweet:)

Me:Shit. I going to fall.

Hams: Have me, wouldn't fall.

Me: OMG!!!

Hams: Don't worry you confirm wouldn't fall. Trust me.

Me:okok..

Everyone: 1....2.....3

*I jump!!!!

*DOINK!!! Hams catch me....

She's my life saver for today. Now I know who I can ask for help when I go blind :P

Overall I had fun today. Awesome!!!!

smiling off,

panic89

What I want to do

2009-08-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

I feel like visiting the Zoo.

I want to watch Supernatural Season 3. NOW!!!!

Yea, I want go on a Holiday. Anywhere in the world, I don't care.

There is a lot of movies I want to watch.

I want to go to the beach. Feel the sun in my face:)

I will love that.

I want to have a day with The f's. Not in school outside school. That will be fun.

I want meet this crazy girl again. Miss her alot. Where's all the gossip?

I want to talk with her. Just two of us. Miss the old days :(

I just want to see them. Coz I miss them alot.

Needing off,

panic89

Zoo

2009-08-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

Just came back from my my aunt place at Jurong.Feeling very sleepy.

Today I feel like visiting the zoo.Hahahaha....
I dunno why? Juz feel like going to the zoo.
I know it's weird.

p.s, I like my new blog skin.

zooing off,
panic89

Random thoughts

2009-08-01T01:05:00.000+08:00

2 more week and we will be changing class.
Hiaz.Have to start all over again.Hi my name is Hafizah from bla bla bla bla.....
I hate introduction and first day!!!

Anyways life's no longer a bitch for me. NO MORE SORROW.I really enjoying what I have now.
New frens and new stories for me to tell. I will treasure all my new friends and they will always be in my heart.

What I want to do is to go for a road trip or Back-packing.I know Singapore is too freaking small for a road-trip and back-packing. So, I should go to another country and do it. I just want to do something different and the experience. Going to somewhere you have no idea where. Walking aimlessly!!!! hahahaha.
I will do it one day and obviously after I graduate which is still very the long. Start saving up money now and after I graduate I should do it.
Anyone want to come? hehehehe.....

It is almost 2 in the morning and I still have not done my RJ.
OMG... I so lazy :x
help me!!!!!

lazy-ing off,
panic89

The World Is Moving

2009-07-30T21:51:00.000+08:00

Meet with Farah and Faz in the morning. We had our breakfast at KFC.I had Wafer meal with Ice Milo. Causes me to be freaking full.We reach class late but the science faci was nice and she did not mark us late.Yipee!!! She is very nice:)

Me,Faz and Farah were in the same team.It was Fara first attempt doing the ppt and I think she did a great job. *Two tumbs up!

At 4:30pm went to TrekEarth training. It had been a while since I went training and jog. Obviously my stamina went down. Shit man.

Muz start jogging again!!!! Saw the rest of the TrekEarth members, miss dem so much.

They are funny people and you will have a blast with them.

Today is Abdul Saif 18th Birthday!!!!!! So Happy Birthday MAT May All Your Wishes come True!!!You rox.

Thanks for the thermometer:) & I didn't mean it when I say you forgot your skin,hehehe... It was a joke. Get over it.

I booking you to watch movie with me again!!!! Lets watch Final Destination 3D. Yeah :P

Your turn to buy the popcorn..... and NO COUPLE SITS :p

I wonder sometimes, why do people change?

It's either they change to the good or bad? What causes this change?

Time? I wonder.......

A question that is never could be answer.

changing off,

panic89

Where I Belong :)

2009-07-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

Woke up early in the morning with my Monday Blue’s like always. I never a Monday type of person, I really hate Monday and I never know why. To me Monday is just not my day. But today Monday is my happiest day for this month.

Yea!!! I miss all of them so much. Who? MY SENTOSA FRIENDS OF COURSE!!!! OMG,i met with them tonight. I love them, I was so happy and can’t stop telling Shahidah that I was happy. I saw Raudha, Karen, Shafiiq, Hasri, Irfan, Mesy, Ana, Saleha, Richard, Halim, Hazlan, Saif , Adelene (i guess thats all, hope I did not forget anyone:< (Sorry if i did) )
I AM VERY THE HAPPY!!!!!! OMG!!!! THEY MADE MY DAY!!!! YIPEE!!!!! HEART THEM!!!!!

Anyways, we met at Changi Airport sent Raudha and Karen off to Venice.They will be going for 10 day.so jealous. I also wanna go.no money.sad much. I just pray they have a safe flight and have fun there. Go wild and find a BF. hahahaha....

PART OF ME WILL ALWAYS TREASURE THIS PEOPLE .........

In skool 2day my team have 2 ppl only. Me and Ivan Tan. Like always Ivan was great. He can do all the work. He rox. But a bully :( Always bully innocent ppl like me :P

hehehe..... Kidding!

Treasuring off,

panic89

My Kind Of Boy :)

2009-07-26T14:08:00.000+08:00

My Kind Of Boy! (:

1. Do you need him to be good looking? Not Really. The inside have to be good and kind to other people.

2. Smart? Don't have to be a book smart but good with words that make me go, ahhh....

3. Preferred age? Same age with me or older :)

4. Preferred height? Taller than me. Obviously :P

5. How about sense of humor? Yea. I am so lame sometime that I need a lamer person to laugh at my joke. And make more lame jokes :0

6. How about piercings? No comment.

7. Accepts you for who you are? Of course. I can't be spending my life with someone who want me to be a faker, rite?

8. Pink hair? Unless if he was planning to NOT get to my dad good side.

9. Mushy or no? Sure. But not everyday coz i still need my space.

10. Thin or fat? When a person is in love. I don't think that matter rite?

11. Black, Brown or White (skin color)? Tanned skin.

12. Long hair or short hair? Neat or spike. But must be neat.

13. Plastic or metal? What? Huh? Wat does this gt to do with a guy?

14. Smells good? Of course. I want to smell him from miles.

15. Smoker? I don't mind but I will prefer if he doesn't.

16. Drinker? No.

17. Girl/Boy-next-door type? Yea. I like guy next door. They always have this cute and Innocent face.

18. Muscular? Sure. But not too muscular.

19. Plays piano? Yes. Then he can play for me like Edward play for Bella.

20. Plays bass and/or acoustic guitar? Yea. Why not?

21. Plays violin? I use to play that.LOL. If he can play it why not.

22. Sings very good? Sure. Then he can sing for me :P

23. Vain? No. I hate vain guys.

24. With glasses? I dun mind. I wear glasses too.

25. With braces? I dun wan. :P

26. Shy type? Yea. I like shy guys.

27. Rebel or good boy? Good and not too rebel. Willing to take risk.

28. Active or passive? Active of course. He will be super boring if he is a passive.

29. Tight or bomb? No idea... What the question askin.

30. Singer or dancer? Great singer like Chester (Linkin Park) or Kris Allen and a hot dancer like Justin Timberlake. Hahahaha....

31. Stunner? Why not.

32. Hip hop? I wouldn't mind.

33. Earrings? I prefer zero.

34. Mr. count-my-ex-girlfriends-until-you-drop? I have to think about this question again.

35. Dimples? Sure that will make him extra cute.

36. Bookworm? If he likes to read that's not my problem.

37. Mr. love letter? Sure, No one writes letter anymore. This show effort.

38. Playful? Playful is equal to flirting :P

39. Flirt? He should not flirt too much till I get sick of it.

40. Poem writer? Sure.But i not really good with poem. Half the time I dun get it.

41. Serious? Only when it is time to be serious.

42. Campus crush? Don't have one yet. But a guy from my previous work place :P

43. Painter? I like to see someone painting.

44. Religious? Yea. Who can guide me the right path :)

45. Someone who likes to tease people? Tease yes but not bully.

46. Computer games geek? Sure. Then he can download all the games I wan to play.

47. Speaks 20 languages? No. as long he understand my language we will be fine :P

48. Loyal or faithful? Is there a different. If you are loyal to me which mean you are being faithful.Rite? hehehe....

49. good kisser? Yea a kiss that make me go. ahhhh..... xoxo

50. loves children? Of course. I love kids and babies. They are a cutie.

This quiz I took from facebook.Coz I was bored and I haven upload my blog like so long already.
Been really sick this past few days. Now i feeling so much better :P

Quiz-ing off,
panic89

Plaint

2009-07-20T19:45:00.000+08:00

I just check my daily grade and for the first time ever I got C for mathematics. OMG la.This is horrible. This show that I am slacking during maths and fooling around.I cannot get another C, NO..... This week must listen and do worksheet.No more laughing and talking.
Study hard. Need to perform well in class :)

Anyways for two freaking days my laptop cannot be log in. I can't use my laptop during the weekend. I got it fix like today only. Thanks to Fazsreena coz she accompany me to the IT help desk which causes us to get lost in the stupid huge library. And she was almost late becoz of me.
But she wasn't.... Lucky her:) BTW, Thanks Faz for the company.

I got a haircut and coloured my hair copper :P
Now I have to do RJ so bye....

bye-ing off,
panic89

TGIF !!!

2009-07-17T18:50:00.000+08:00

It's Friday and I just love Friday. Coz Friday is the day that we relax and sleep late and can wake up super late the next day. Yeah, Friday Rock my socks!!!

Anyway we had mathematics today, like always Fifi did the most thinking and we try to help him as much as possible :P

Today I woke up freaking early and made Sandwich with chicken ham, scramble eggs and hotdogs. Yummy. Had a mini "picnic" with my frens. Got nothing much to blog today.

Sometimes having a shitty life is not so bad,At least we would have something to blog about.Rite? Hahahaha.. Kiddin:P

Siak, I joke, I joke, I kidd, i Kidd.

Laughing off,

panic89

Re-cap

2009-07-16T19:01:00.000+08:00

Just came back from NorthPoint.Meet with my parents before went back home.Today I had communication test. I'm not sure if it was very difficult,however it was not that easy.I guess I'll grade it average. Hope I can pass. But it is very sad coz I was not able to finish the test on time.I'm so afraid that I wouldn't be able to go to next semester. I can't repeat a semester, it is a waste of money.

Getting really sleepy and I'm thinking of sleeping early tonight.

Tomorrow I was planning to get up early and prepare a sandwich or something. For 2morrow break at school. The F's want to have a mini picnic in school. :P

Anyways, since Eminem came back (after a very long break) I am now addicted to his songs.

I love his new singles We mad you and 3AM. His latest single Beautiful is so nice.I can't get enough of Eminem!!!! & I don't usually listen to those type of songs. R&B? so,not me.

wondering off,

panic89

The 3 great "F"'s

2009-07-15T21:36:00.000+08:00

The 3 F's bitches being lame I always. (TGIF ppl, TGIF)

Slim Shady style yo yo.... (yeah)

This what I go to school for!!! Even though it is stupid and you can call me crazy.

But I know that they rox and such "bitches". I've had plenty of friends but none like this "Bitches".

F-ing off,

panic89

No More Shitty Day

2009-07-14T21:42:00.000+08:00

Fine.
I know yesterday post I was feeling kindda shitty.Too much anger. But today no more about them.

Stress aside!
But i still not changing my song till I can stop puking when I hear or think about them :)

I feel like eating KFC porridge. *Yummy :P

Today the 3"F" had alot of fun like always.Hahaha.....
Seriously once we change class the people who I going to miss the most would be Fara and Fazsreena. These are the bitches who make my day at school worth it. I know that I can trust and bitching with them is so fun la.
Tomorrow will be another crazy day at school *Enterprise!!??? hate it)

Oh, ya I almost forget I want to say thank you to Ad for trying to help me out:)
I'll think about it but I not sure if I can do it again. You don't want see me puking every time I see their face rite? hehehehe......

Shahidah, mak.Sorry never reply to your message. hehehehe.was kindda piss off la. But no worries I'm ok now. I don't blame you for telling me. I'm glad you told me coz it I would not want to find out myself that would make me extra angry.

I miss so many people and I wish we would have a gathering so that we all can meet up.
Miss you all many many.... Hope I being miss too :P

shady-ing off,
panic89

Get Over It Fizah

2009-07-13T21:19:00.000+08:00

I am so freaking piss that I telling you 80% of my post today is gonna be full of anger.Coz I don't understand some people.WTF!!!??? Fine I'm not good enough for the job so you gonna use some newbie to replace me.Fuck man.Do you know who you taking in? She's a fucking two face Bitch!!! That is who she is, fine with me if you want to take that Bitch back. Fuck You and Fuck her.
Guess you guys are meant to be in the same fucking group coz you all are two-timers freaks.

I can't believe that I use to respect you guys. You all don't deserve my bloody respect.Two-face assholes. Once you lose my respect that's the end.There is no such thing as second chance in my life.

Everyday I listen to your lame instructions!!! If I can take everything back I would. I wouldn't listen every single shit that coming out from your disgusting mouth. I would find fault with you and make your life hell every single day. You would receive thousands complaint about me coz I'm such a fucked staff.

Damn, I really want to know what I did wrong that causes you all to be so piss off with me.If I did wrong, is it so hard to open your mouth and tell me what I did wrong!!! Instead of talking behind my back and give lame excuses to me saying that you have enough staff and not taking any staff back. WTF!!?? What suddenly you taking back staff again.What this shit all about?

I know that I wrote in the previous post saying that I should forget them but they choosing a bitch over me!!!! I can't lose to a bitch coz it is not right. I want an explanation and I wouldn't rest the case till I get a fucking answer.
I AM SO FUCKING PISS!!! & I bet you all noe I am talking about who....

I would like to dedicate the song "Puke" by Eminem to those fuckers who thinks they could make a great future by staying at that place for years and be freaking rich. Thanks for making me disgust you all so much. I promise you if I were to see you on the street I wouldn't say Hi,oh, better still you wouldn't even see me smiling at you. Coz you all two-face bitches who only think about yourself and never about your staff. So enjoy the song and Fuck off :)

"You don't know how sick you make me
You make me fuckin' sick to my stomach
Every time I think of you, I puke
You must just not know--whoa-whoa-whoa-whoa
You may not think you do, but you do
Every time I think of you I puke!"

pissing off,
panic89

PanicNO-MORE

2009-07-11T13:39:00.000+08:00

This is sad:(
Jon Walker (Bass) and Ryan Ross(Guitarist) left Panic At the Disco!!!!

I so depress, OK maybe I am over-reacting but I really love that band.

I had always love their songs, it is always different from all this other bands.
Look at my Blog skin Panic at the disco!!!!! OMG!

OK, Jon and Ryan left rite? Then Brendon (Lead singer) and Spencer (Drum) said the would continue the band. And they are recording their 3rd album. But if you dun have a bass and a guitarist , How could there still be a band!!!

What, you guys gonna call yourself a HALF-BAND?

Come on:(

This is a nightmare.WHY? The only reason we received is that Ryan and Jon forming their own band!!! WTF!!????

Whats wrong with your old band? They should interview Jon and Ryan and get them to talk.

Whats the reason for leaving? Don't they know they have fans who loved them.

They are so selfish (Not Brendon and Spencer of course, they still rox and have my 100% support but maybe they should get a guitarist and a bass first, hmmm... just a suggestion).

THIS IA A FREAKING NIGHTMARE !!!!!

depressing off,

panic89

1, 2 ,3... Cheese :P

2009-07-10T21:52:00.001+08:00

THE PEOPLE WHO I WILL MISS DEEP2 :>

Mathematic Maddness

2009-07-10T20:58:00.000+08:00

FIZAH, FARAH AND FAZSREENA ( The 3 "F"!)

Today I had Mathematics and our topic today was probability. My weakest topic and I end up not doing my work coz busy fooling around with Farah and Faz. My group today were Ricardo, Fan Ying, Farah, Fazsreena and ME!!!!

It was so fun to be with Farah "The Crazy Bitch" and Faz "The Kecoh Gal". We keep laughing and was not even listening to faci. oppssss... naughty us :/

Then we 3 play a game, we have to say a word that strats with the letter F when we forming a sentence. e.g, Freaking crazy day, He is a bad friend, Where are you going, faci? and etc....

I noe it sounds so lame but the fun we had was crazy.

We 3 keep laughin, bitching, show attitude, bully Jon alot (which is so fun), sing, show attitude at each other...lol and more. The time move so fast.

We also sang in Slim Shady style,

"Guess who's back Back again

Caleb's back , Tell a friend Guess who's back,

guess who's back, guess who's back,

guess who's back guess who's back, guess who's back,

guess who's back.. "

(Fara sang the song and I followed along, Faz stared at us like we were crazy)

hahahaha... talkin about fun in skool :D

Then we went back together still laughing and shouting at each other.

Crazy much....

(AND TODAY MATHEMATIC LESSON RICARDO AND FAN YING DID A GREAT JOB THEY DESERVE AN A !!!!!)

Guessing off,

panic89

Back where we belong

2009-07-03T00:53:00.000+08:00

It's 1 in the morning and I am still wide awake.LOL.
Just too lazy to sleep.I know it sounds very stupid, like who in the world can be too lazy to sleep, rite? There so many things we can do and sleeping is a waste of time in a way. The only reason we have to sleep coz we need to restore our energy.

Anyways, Today the school re-opened.At last, I thought I was going to die of bored at home.Hahaha. It was science and we changed group again. But it was OK and we didn't have to do presentation , which is the best part:)

I seriously think I am addicted to Transformer. All of a sudden transformer is such a big thing.lol.
Listening to Linkin Park song, New Divide.Over and over again.Can never get bored of the song.
And Chester voice is great :)
I really don't feel like sleeping but have to go to sleep or else I would look like a dead girl walking :P
There is nothing on TV!!!!!!

linkin' off,
panic89

Transformer

2009-06-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

Watched Transforme 2 today with "Mat".OMG!!!! The story very nice.The action was great.

The robots fighting was so cool. The whole movie was about 2hrs plus.

In the middle of the movie I had to pee but Mat choose to ignore me and I end up holding my peee until the show end. I thought my bladder was going to explode!!!!

Thanks a lot Mat... :P

Anyways, back to the movie. Sam parents were really funny. And his dog Mojo is one horny dog.

Hahaha..... Really enjoyed the movie. It must be one bloody expensive movie to make. They exploded a lot of stuff and the cars they used and destroy. OMG!!!!!

I really want to get a drving lisence. Just so freaking lazy to go and register my Final Theory Test la. Must go all the way to Yio Chu Kang and got no one to accompany me.

Sad rite????

Meet with Shahidah after the movie.We end up at long john and kept talking till 9:30pm.

Miss her alot.Have a lot of story to tell her.

And she also asked me to change my attitude to people I dislike.

She said, "If you dun like that person, no need to be a bithch infront of that person."

Hahahaha..........

Transforming off.

panic89

Quiz me

2009-06-29T19:59:00.000+08:00

Quiz (:
1.The person who tagged you?
Fazreena from W45P ;)

2.Your relationship with her?
My classmate from RP (W45P 2009)- who have same taste almost everything wit me.ALMOST.

3.First impression of her?
Didn't really pay attention to the class.Dun really like new environment.

4.The most memorable moment with her is?
Durin Science lesson, when i first told her bout a person.

5.The most memorable thing she said to you?
I like Drew Seeley too.Then both of us started screaming.

6.If she becomes your lover, what should she improve on?
erm.. NO, THANKS!!!! next question plz....

7.If she becomes your enemy,what will you do?
I would ask her Why she hate me. Coz Jared Leto fans dun hate each other!!!!

8.The most desired thing you want to do for her is?
ewwww.... skip!

9.Your overall impression of her?
She rox and fun to be with. My gossip partner in W45P.
And she doesn't have low self-esteem!!!! :P

10.The characteristic you hate most about yourself?
My laziness. It is so big that you can't measure it.

11.The most ideal person you want to be with is?
Anyone NICE with me. And easily to get along with and dun mind fooling around like MAD!!!
Understand me and love my Family :)

12.For people who care and love you,say something to them.
You guys worth more than all the money in the world.

13.Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you.
1.Evelyn See
2.Marziana
3.Fazira
4.Aziela
5.Khairiya
6.Khairil
7.Farlyana
8.Shahidah
9.Fazreena (I know she the one who pass me the question but I wan to know what she thinks bout me)
10.Saif "Mat"

14.Who is (6) having a relationship with?
I have idea. Ithink he is single.Might be gay also.Not sure. Hahahaha...

15.Is (9) male or female?
Not sure.Later i ask.Faz You gal or guy?? hmm.....

16.What is (2) studying for at the moment?
She not studying anymore. Currently teaching in Chong Fu Primary School.

17.Who is the last person you chat with?
Fazreena.She pass me the question :P I was force to this quiz by her.JK !!!
Dun angry.

18.What kind of music does (8) like?
She LOVES Hindi songs.

19.Does (1) have any siblings?
Yup!!! 1 younger sister name Jasmine.

20.Is (4) single?
Ya. She dun belive in relationship and thinks guys are a waste of time!!!

21.What's the surname of (5)?
No surname. Father name Zulkifli.

22.What is the hobby of (3)?
Eating obviously. Hahahaha.....

23.Does (7) and (9) gets along well?
I think so. Both name start with FA and both loves Gossip. hahaha....

24.Where is (10) studying at?
I know!I know! Logistic :)

25.Say something casual about your eyes.
It is brown when i have my contacts on :)

26.Have you tried developing feelings for (2)?
She is my sister!!!! WTH?

27.Where does (9) stay?
OMG!! i 4got. Boon Lay, i think...
(I noe this is cheatin, but she gave me the ans... Bukit Batok)

28.What colour does (4) likes?
If i'm not wrong purple.

29.Are (5) and (1) good friends?
Not really. They met like only twice.

30.Does (2) like (7)?
They used to work at the same place. Fun and crazy people.

31)How did you get to know (8)?
Totsland. A playgroup centre we used to work at.

32.Does (3) has any pets?
NO! She is staying at the same place with me. hahaha.

33.Is (7) the sexiest person in the world?
Ya. She is a good dancer. Should see when she shake her ass :P

34.Are you sexy?
No. Hahahaha.. only crazy people will say themselve sexy :P

35.What are you doing now?
Watching Indiana Jones while doing this question.
ps: Shia LaBeouf is Hot!!!! (can't wait to watch transformer)

Bored had took over my life

2009-06-28T22:03:00.000+08:00

I REALLY WANT TO GO OUT AND DO SOMETHING!!!!

I AM BORED TOO DEATH AND THERE IS NO SKOOL TILL

WEDNESDAY. STUCK AT HOME PLAYING INTERNET

EVERYDAY.THIS IS BORING AND I NEED A FREAKING

LIFE!!!!!!! HOW I WISH I STILL WORKING AT LEAST

THERE IS SOMETHING FUN.

EVEN THOUGH, YOU GET SCREWED AT LEAST IT WAS NOT

BORING LIKE HELL!!!!!

boring off,
panic89

Confussion

2009-06-27T20:20:00.000+08:00

Another boring Sturday, Khairiya went back home today.Nothing much to do today.
Supppose to go with Evelyn today but i cancel it.Maybe we can go another day Eve.Seol Garden maybe. You do the cooking and I do the eating.

Trust: somebody who or something that people place confidence or faith in....
And what I want now is my parents to have that in me. You never caught me done anything that is very wrong and embarassed both of you.
Please have some trust in your children. Even if I come back home late you have to belive that I am ok.coz i am a big girl who can make right decision.
Even if I fall down, I will get up and keep going. It will only make me stronger,
All i need fro both of you now is SUPPORT :)

I know I can go far in life. Life is all about challenges.

faith-ing off,
panic89

BBQ at East Coast Park

2009-06-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

Just came back from BBQ at East Coast Park.(BBQ with my classmates - W45P)Hahaha..
Very fun . I brought Khairiya along. At first when we wanted to get there we got abit lost.
Not very lost, it is a lost that you still not completlt lost. Making sense? I thought so.
We took the bus and end up at Marina parade which is not where we wanted to go.Went down the bus and have to take another bus.Then we have to walk like a 10mins walk and FINALLY we reached.

Now the time is about 12:25am.Getting really sleepy.Can't continue anymore. Bye people.
And the chicken at the BBQ was vey nice.
Yummy :P

yawning off,
panic89

Too Serious Too Late :(

2009-06-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

Each day goes by I finally feel that I getting closer with my classmates (W45P Rox!)

But I feel kindda sucky coz i took such a long time to get comfortable with them. I took bout a month plus before I really open up with them. After this semester, we have to change class again!!!! And I have to start all over again (Introduction, bla, bla, bla). Let just say I'm not a BIG fan of new environment.

Anywayz, we (Ivan, JuYee, Dee, Stan, Fara, Faz, Firdaus, Fiza H.) played JamLegend today and freaking addicted to the game ( & all thanks to Faz).

We were supposed to complete the worksheet given by faci but we ended up playing the game.It was fun and we were noisy.LOL.

And my aim is to beat Faz in the game next week :P. And JuYee is pretty good for a new-comer.She beat me :(

Supernatural Season 4 is out la!!!! I have not even see season 3 how am I suppose to watch Season 4 now? Geez.....

Desperately want to buy season 3 DVD now. So that I can watch season 4!!! Saw a few clips of Supernatural 4 and there a new main character, he play as an angel (Castiel) in the show. And Dean is like working for him and everything and Dean have to kill Sam (Very Suspend). Season 4 is maddness and it is a MUST watch.

SUPERNATURAL rock my life !!!!!!!!

vanishing off,

panic89

Gift Of Century

2009-06-22T21:12:00.000+08:00

Today i received the best gift ever. Never would i imagine to received this gift.

I gt Food poisoning from the food that I had yesterday. And the only food that I ate yesterday was at Sakura :( hahahaha... Horrible.

My stomach felt horrible yesterday night but i thought it was just a normal cramp. But today morning when i woke up the pain was worst.OMG.

I vomited and keep going to the toilet.It was very Bad.I guess this is what you get for being GrEeDy.

Ate my medicine and got my rest.Now my stomach feel much better.

Would be going to school tomorrow:)

Grumping off,

panic89

20th years of experience in life

2009-06-21T20:53:00.000+08:00

Lets keep walking !!!!!!

Today I celebrated a year closer to death. Yup,it is my birthday (Lucky 21)

Thanks to all those who gave their wishes and very sorry that I can't reply to all of you.

But thank you very much I really appreciate it.

Finally went to Sakura Buffet @ Woodlands with my family. We celebrated my Birthday, Father's Day (for my grandpa and dad), Marz first day of work tomorrow (Good Luck and break a leg) and my grandma recovery.

I think everything is ok.. now and i hope it will always stay this way :)

Now I am officiall 20th years old.When a person turn 20th no more teen. Hahaha,i guess it is time to grow up :(

When I was 19th years old, it had been really the bumpiest time of my live.Too many ups and downs.I had to make difficult choices.At the end of the day when we fall we should just get up and keep going.It will not make us weaker but stronger and wiser.Everyday is a lesson for us.

Not sure what would change since I'm 20th now.I meeting new people and making new friends.

I guess what i would really want to change will be my responsibilty and my thinking. I have to admit I can be immature at time and hot-tempered.I always want to be right and never the opposite. I guess because of this i screwed up at my previous job and end up losing it.

My whole 19th years old live the most that i never regret is working at Sentosa.I started as the quiet one.When time goes by everything changed.I was the noisest and really enjoyed my job.The work place open my eye to the real world.There is so much more than just studying and money.Fun play the most important part in the world.
When you feeling Fucked,just think of something FUN and i promise you, you will feel so much better and everything is gone :)

Life is not always about working hard and moving foward. Sometimes it's ok to just stop and look.

Enjoy the world.For a change why don't you look at the positive part of live (Enjoy what you having now instead of what you have lost and never had!!!)Coz we all live only once.

smiling off,

panic89

More Than Juz One Activity

2009-06-18T22:27:00.001+08:00

Today was Science.Boring like usual.2morrow is Mathematic.Sianz.....
Anyway today Fazreena never come to skool.Very the boring.Spent the time disturbing Fara and Fiza.Really FUN.

When to watch movie wit Saif "MAT". When we bought the ticket the cashier gave the friendly smile and everythin.Greeted us too.We told her the movie that we wanted to watch.

"The light blue is the available sits, and the back sit is the couple sit", said Cashier.
"NO,we dun wan the couple sit.We not a couple", I said with a shock face.
"What? NO.we not couple.We will take the single sit", Saif said with his cheeky smile at the cashier (Who is obviously a girl).
"Ya, taking my little brother for a movie", I said.
Saif did say somethin else which I dun remeber but he was so flirting with the girl la.LOL.

Drag me to hell.The movie was really gross and funny.I'm not sure is the story line was great but the old woman was funny. And the sound effect is so loud. Yes, i screamed and shouted a few times but Mat did it too.Lol.
I keep pulling his shirt when ever I gt shock.HAHAHA. Which actually causes him to get shock.
Crazy sound effect !!!!!

Then when to TrekEarth.We ran around Admiralty park den near marsling de.I dunno.LOL.
We ran somewhere.Can't really remember. TrekEarth will be organising more trips for us.I can't wait.

Last phrase before I go,
STOP TRYING TO SEEK FOR ATTENTION !

Full Of Laziness

2009-06-17T20:10:00.000+08:00

This whole week i have been super lazy. Didn't do my Reflect Journal on Monday, didn't when school on Tuesday and as for today wasn't even listening what the facilator was mumbbling about.She kept going in and on and on. Till it was our break she was still talking.

Anyways, tommorow is science which is so FUN.Not the subject but the faci not even bother what we do.Seriously, the class will end up playing facebook, watching you tube, etc.Hahaha.You can't blame us coz she is really boring.

Saw Farlyana and Izzat at school juz know.Miss them alot.Actually i miss the Sentosa staff lots.Rayner got a promotion and now an IC.Congrats Rayner you totally deserve it. Message Saif "Mat" yesterday nite too.Hahahaha.He and his crap.He can be very dramatic sometimes.Ida is forever like Mother.Noisy and naggy but we all still love her.Miss all of them.

Tomorrow school again.Every morning I feel like I draging myself to wake up in the morning to go to school.Sianz.....

Sianz off,
panic89

Just having FUN

2009-06-10T19:07:00.000+08:00

Long time since i update the blog.Busy with stuff.. i think.
Even though it is the holiday had a lot of thinking and decision to make.
I really wanted to do it but why the rest dun have to do it.How come i must do it?
Guess it is time for me to move on. Yesterday is the past and tommorrow is a mystery :)
That whats everyone say....

Both my hands are up.
Time to say Goodbye for real.It is sad coz i didn't get to say a proper goodbye to all the nice ppl there....
Will miss you all :(

Waving off,
panic89

Crazziness

2009-05-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

Preparing for science UT 2morrow.Which i know that i going to fail.Hahaha...

Maybe will be going back to work. Busy studying my guided tour for Images Of Singapore.

I not sure this is call studying.Is it more like memorsing? hmmmm....

I wonder.If you memorise something is it the same like studying? If you study but never memorise you wouldn't be able to remember all the facts, rite?

My question is memorising = studying ?

I wonder.... (RANDOM)

Anyway had science today.I didn't even know what i was presenting. I was just reading from the slide.Hahahaha.....

Had a lot of fun with Fazreena who i never know had so much common with me la.Fun :)

Crazy fights with Fara.Who know she is actually funny.Laugh:P

Gt A for last week science. Super Happy.. My first A :)

ps: Listening to 30 second to Mars songs, Jared leto is Hot!!!!

smiling off,

panic89

Decision Making

2009-05-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

Now i having such a big headeache. I have to make the most important decission now Should i say NO or YES?
Who could had guess just 2 simple words is the hardest to say.Both answer will lead to you to two diffrent place in life.
Which one would you chose?The easiest path but you would lose everythin you worked for.
Or the hardest path which will bring you to the a place you always want to be but get hell in return.

If you were me, which path will you go.I asked everyone and dey all have diff ans and opinion.
But at the end of the day.Only my ans matter!

Wondering off,
panic89

Nothing much

2009-05-21T22:12:00.000+08:00

Just came back from trainig. Ate a bowl of chicken noodle.hehehe... Random, rite?

Like who cares what i ate.

Anyways after training celebrated Sheena birthday at the carpark. You could see chocolate flying everywhere. Seriously:)

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY BABE, MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE !!!

Tomorrow will be having Science Test. And i know nothing bout science watever coz half the time I'm not listening. The subject is so boring. And science gt nothing to do with my course la.

Boring la... I dun wan study science already.

Even for my O-Level i failed my science :(

I might be going back to work. I dunno.... I really need money :(

I wan learnt driving and buy so many things...

I shoul create a widhlist soon.hehehe

Last and not least, An important news to annouce to you all.....

KRISS ALLEN WON AMERICAN IDOL...he rox :)

Alrite, need to go... Have to reed through my science stuff thingy.....

Science'ing',

panic89

Define Exhausted

2009-05-19T18:39:00.000+08:00

Feeling super exhausted.Didn't went to Trek Earth training today coz sad to rush home.Something came up.Very sorry guys, I'll join you all this coming Thursday training.Arite?

Just came back from jogging.Hey doesn't mean that I didn't went for training I don't have to do anything.I still have to trained by myself ok.It is super boring jogging by myself but I still have to do it.I have to get my stamina back seh.2 years of no exercise made Fizah a lazy girl :P

Anyway will be having UT (understanding test) tomorrow. Feeling super lazy to check my notes and everythin.My RJ still incomplete. pfff.... :/

Exhausting off,
panic89

Home Sweet Home

2009-05-17T22:39:00.000+08:00

HOME SWEET HOME!!!

Juz came back from Pulau Ubin:) with the trek team RP.It was a 2 day 1 night trip.

Had so much fun.

Day 1

(6:20am)

Kiss Mummy and grandma goodbye.Put on my shoe and it's time to set off.

Took a cab to Yishun MRT and met wit Hams before heading to Bishan Mrt to met Vig.

(6:45am)

We reach at Bishan MRT and waited for Vig.We were suppose to meet at 7am but we reached earlier than expected.

(7:00am - 8:30am)

Vig finally reached and we took the train and head to Tampiness MRT. The train was not really crowded but bag-pack keep hiting other people. It was horrible.Everyone kept staring at us.There was an auntie who stared at Hams like she wanna eat her. (hahaha)

Finally we reached Tampiness and meet with 2 other frens (N.N and Sharifah). We took 29 to Changi.And yes we were late coz the plan was to meet at 8:30am at Changi not 8:30am at tampiness.But hey, you can't blame on us coz the bus was late. :P

(8:45am - 10:00am)

We finally reached Changi Jetty.Meet up with the rest of the team.Bought breakfast and had a few conversation and left Singapore and head to Pulau Ubin at 1000hrs. We were divided into 2 different boat. Took a few photos with a smile.I was sure everyone was excited.

This was the beginning of a new chapter in Trek Earth

(10:30am - 11:30am)

Took about 30mins or even lesser than that to reach Pulau Ubin. Gather at the basketball court and the senior taught us how to read the map.It was something new to me.I never read a map before coz i took history and I never like geography because of map reading.(Now i think I juz changed my mind).Then we were divided into 2 groups.My group was called Heng Heng.Dun even ask WHY.lol.

(11:30m - 4:30pm)

The trekking begin. We were suppose to be look for hidden clue or whatever it is called. Anyways back to my story. We walked around Pulau Ubin looking for the clue and it was not that easy. At the beginning the group started very quiet and no one talk much. The one doing the most talking was the senior.As the time goes by,finally everyone was talking. Jokes we shared and stupid comment could be heard.It was madness and fun. We managed to find all the 4 clues without failing.I feel that the reason we can do this without any trouble is because of TEAMWORK. We kept pushing and supporting one another and finally we reached our campsite.

(4:30pm - 8:30pm)

After reaching our camp site we set up our tents for SLEEPING & Resting.after setting up all the tents it was time for cooking. We cooked and had a few laughs. Ate till full then rest for a while before we had our night work A.K.A confident walk.

(8:30pm - 10:00pm)

We had our night walk which took us about an hour or so. We sat in circle and talked about how we felt about the trip so far. Then we head back to our campsite and have more talks and even a few ghost story.

(11:00 pm - 12:00am )

Said Goodnight to the rest and went to sleep.Coz i was really2 tired.I really need some sleep.

The rest were still fresh and continued their conversation.

(12 :00am - 1:00am )

Woke up because of the conversation the boys were having.They were so loud that even Hams woke up too.Hahahaha... and the most craziest part the conversation they had was about Edward shit! Fall asleep again ignoring their loud voice.

(2:00am - 2:30am )

Again woken up by their voices and still talking about Edward shit.Hahahaha,

Seriously they need to get a new job.lol :P

Day 2

(6:30am)

The sun was shining and the sound of wave was beautiful. Woke up and just sit there in the tent enjoying the view of the sea.It was so peace. The mind is empty and nothing to worry:)

Look around and the rest were still sleeping soundly and peacefully. Some were even sleeping outside of their tent.

(7:30am - 11:00am)

Finally everyone was awake. Had our breakfast which actually look like a feast to me. The senior cooked so much food.& I'm not a breakfast type of person.I hate eating breakfast coz it make my stomach feel funny.We had so much food for breakfast. We mee goreng, chicken soup, tuna, bean , spaghetti, Campbell soup and many more which i can't remember.

After breakfast, we kept the tents fold it up and had De-brief before we had COCONUT.

(11:30am - 12:30pm)

After drinking the coconut we headed back to changi. Went to had lunch and finally it was time to say Goodbye:)

(1:45pm)

Finally reached home. Had a long cold bath and it felt so good after getting rid of all the dirt on me.I smell so GOOD. hehehe.....

I had so much fun these 2days and I can't wait for more trips to come.

Trek Earth all the way :)

Trekking off,

panic89

Last Minutes like always

2009-05-15T23:15:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow I'll be going Pulau Ubin with Trek Earth RP.I still in the middle of packing my bag.Look at the time it's already 2118hrs.It's getting late.OMG!!!!Last minute like always, I'm such a last min person.Hahaha....

I juz finish doing my RJ.I am so horrible everything is pushed last min.My camping stuff were also bought juz now.I'm sure I already bought everythin'.

Hhhmmmm.............I not sure either.

OKOK.. enough,I need to go...

Oh,i almost forgotten celebrated Kraven birthhday juz now at skool.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRAVEN !!!!

Rushing off,

panic89

Mini Celebration

2009-05-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

It's FRIDAY!!!!! OMG,i loved Friday coz the next day is a weekend.Time to play:)
Anyway, Uncle,Auntie and Shafiqah came today.We had like an early mother day celebration.Hahahaha...............

Finally Happiness

2009-05-05T20:53:00.000+08:00

Maybe today started a bit rough for me.I woke up like super late coz of my stupid phone!!!My phone alarm did not ring and i woke up it was already super bright.I look at my phone it was 7:22AM!! Ended up taking a cab to work,almost late but wasn't late:) I reached skool at 8:20AM:)

Then i went foe my IG (Intrest Group) which is Trek Earth.Had a lot of fun.The people are fun and friendly.Well,maybe I couldn't remember all their name but sooner or later I'll sure remeber all their names and even GOOD and BAD habits. You guys wanna bet?

And i just checked my Mathematics grade i got a B!!! WOW, a B at last.I haven get a B yet and finally a B.I so happy.No more grade C for me.I aiming for B or A only.hehehe:)

Anywayz, I am watching "Fighting Spider" on Tv.It is a local drama and the show is very addictive.Funny too. It's about 3 bestfriend who do everything together even getting into troubles and silly mistake.LOL....The drama is nice and it really brings back old memories.

happy'ing' off,
panic89

UPDATE :)

2009-05-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

Just an update that what i had been up to.SO...here it goes,
erm...I managed to buy myself a new running shoe (Nike) and a shoe bag too...and total prrice $175.90!!!! hahaha..alomst half of my pay gone.....

Visited Shukrie and Shukran yesterday.That small boy (Shukran) is so cute,You know what he said,"When i go K2 i dun wan fren you",cute rite?
lol.....Reach their house like around 2:30pm then watch "Journey to the centre of the earth" and some anime movie i think it was "Alien VS Monster"? or the other way round.Ok,fine watever I can't remember.Anyways after that we also ate MI SOTO AND FRIED RICE cooked by Kak Titi.Den we played TABOO.Love that game.
Me and Fazira (Team A) and Marz and Shukri (Team B).It was really fun and funny.I think we played for almost 2 hours or so.Hahahaha........
At the end Team A won the game.lol... Team A:59 and Team B:54
WE ROX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Roxing off,
panic89

Is it Saturday?

2009-05-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

Today is a freaking boring Saturday.Seriously there isn't anything to do.So fraeking boring.Anyway watched Joy Ride 2, the movie is so gore.I almost feel like puking at the end of the movie.*BLUEK!

Anyway tomorrow going to Shukri and Shukran house.Haven seethat for a few mths now.Hehehe.Been so busy with work lately.

And tomorrow my Sentosa frens also want to go out witj me and my sister (Marz).But we already had planned so very sorry guys maybe another time alrite?

Planning to buy a few things tomorrow.Maybe a sport shoe coz my old one is really in bad condition.And maybe shirt or jeans.Not sure.WHAT?I'm not spending that much rite?Watever,I just got my pay.Hahahaha.......

ps:Marz is watchin Joy Ride 2 on TV seriously the show is so fucking gore!!!!!

Disgusting Off,

panic89

A Lost Key

2009-04-30T21:15:00.000+08:00

This is a story about a girl who drop a key in a freaking hole and we have to look for it to do closing........

Culprit : Shahidah (Mak)
Helper: Hafizah
Karen (ic)
Saver: AD
Saif (Mat)

This is the girl who dropped they key in the hole!

"OH,NO!!!! What had i done?", screamed Shahidah.....

5 mins later, the rescuer came to help....

"KAREN!!!Shine the light properly lah!," Saif shouted.

"F***ER, CANNOT SAY NICELY AH!!!!,"scolded Karen.

"IS MY HELP EVEN NEEDED HERE?,"question Fizah.

"SAIF,YOU KNOW WHAT YOU DOING OR

NOT?",asked Fizah.

"SHUT UP LA!!!YOU TALK TOO MUCH,I NEED TO

CONCENTRATE!",shouted Saif.

"F**K LA!I WANT TO GO HOME LEH,I CALLING FOR

ANOTHER HELP!!!",Karen was getting impatient.

"THIS IS VERY TRICKY,WE NEED A LOT OF PATIENT

TO DO THIS...SHINE ME THE LIGHT SAIF,AND STOP

MOVING!!!",AD odered Saif.

"OF ALL PEOPLE KAREN CALL YOU TO HELP...",Said

Saif.

AFTER TOURTURING MINS TRYING TO GET THE KEY

OUT......WE FINALLY GOT THEY KEY OUT!!!!!

Fyi, this is a real life story...all the character in the story are real and they still can be found in Sentosa.

Ending off,
panic89

Time to say GOODBYE

2009-04-29T21:49:00.000+08:00

WOW! my life now is like a rollercoaster.Not sure whats going on in my life.Dun even know what I wanted this when i got it,I wanted that,when i got that I want the other one and I don't want the prvious one but I want the new one and I don't want that anymore but I don't want let go of that but I can't keep both.So,I decided take out that coz I want this in my life but i realised that I wanted that all along I don't want this.But I don't want to waste this and I have to let go of that.I want that again so I'll................. CONFUSING rite?
This is what my mind thinking everyday...Doink!!!!

So many things...IS THIS WHAT I WANT?
the question that i still trying to ans.

Anywas stress aside.28th April 2009.
Which was yesterday was my last day at work:(
I going to miss Sentosa and especially my attraction Images Of Singapore.The attraction I was given and the one that I left.IOS will always be in my heart.I wouldn't forget IOS.
But too bad everything had come to the end.Time to say GoodBye.
I can still remember when it was my first day of work.Everything seems so new.I remember meeting Kana Liana Nurul for the first time.I was so freaking quiet during ny OJT1-4. I didn't talk much but look at me now.I have a mouth that never stop.LOL.
All the frenz I made......The crazy "family" in Sentosa....Shahidah Saif Far Izzat Karen Ad Marz Shafiiq Diyana .....Going to Miss them the most!!!!
YOU GUY STAY CRAZY AT SENTOSA.OK?
Dun let words get you down,the way it got me :(

Some Random Pictures that I have in memory Of the crazytime I had at Sentosa :)

Missing off,
panic89

What i'm thinking

2009-04-24T15:35:00.000+08:00

Today is the 5th day of school.The class is getting close to each other and comfortable with each other.Everyone is starting to open up and crack a few jokes.Even ME.I have to admit i starting to lossen up and showing them my true colours.

I don't understand people that is too serious in leve.They are so serious that they don't get a joke.They get so defensive like they are in a freaking court and not a class.GEEZ...
Relax,and get a chill pill!!!!!
If you can't effort one i'll give some to you,even better i'll buy it for you.FOC.

Anyways,have to work tomorrow.Got to admit miss work many2.I want see my Images Of Singapore.Hope the rest of the staff have been doing a good job at Sentosa.Miss all the fun i had in Sentosa.In Sentosa i feel that you can say watever you want to say and no one take it too heart,Coz everyone there knows when to joke and when to be serious.
I'm Coming Home Tomorrow.

ps:I just finish class and i am sill waiting for Khairiya....She always late:(

waving off,
panic89

Skool

2009-04-23T15:44:00.000+08:00

Currently in school just finish class.Waithing for Khariya who is still stuck in the class.
School is fun and you meet alot people with different people with different personality.Some are very defensive,some is Happy go lucky,you will even get to meet the jocker.
I'm sure in school there is ups and downs.I haven face the down yet but i'm sure i'll face one sooner or later.

Feeling alittle unwell.Anyways i need to go.Have to finish up my RJ (Republi Journal).
Just blog another day then.
Bye2....

Studying Off,
panic89

Just Bored

2009-04-21T21:54:00.000+08:00

Today was suppose to be my 2nd day at school.but wasn't feeling.I couldn't stopped going to the toilet but felt a little better now.Today was suppose to be science.

Anyways,My family and i planning to go to Genting on June.Not confirmed but planning.
Hope to go there.can't wait.
Thats all for today.
Nite:)

FYI:Watching Ugly Betty on TV.

Betty-ing off,
panic89